《疑心病》一叶知境

20、他蹲在婚纱店门口 他忘了所有

　　他要给他穿上婚纱

　　他说他要娶他回家

　　2003年我遇到一个人

　　那是我第一次看见他

　　那天刚好下着雨

　　雨势大的模糊了我的方向感

　　我一个人打着伞跑着

　　就在那时，我看见了一个男孩

　　他的身上还穿着校服

　　但是凌乱的让我注意到了他

　　他的背上背着一个人

　　那个人的身上披着一块破布

　　他就这样背着他走着

　　他的手里还拿着一个大麻袋，里面哗啦啦作

　　雨水打湿了他的全身

　　但他却意外的，很保护背上的人

　　雨水模糊了我的视线，我没有看清他的样子

　　我以为这就是一个普通的乞丐

　　或是其他人

　　但是没过多久我又看见了那个背影

　　他坐在一家婚纱店门口

　　周围围满了人，都在议论着他

　　但他像是不知道一样

　　眼睛盯着婚纱店里摆着的那个婚纱

　　我好奇的走了过去，这才看清了他

　　他身上依旧是那件破旧的校服

　　上面满是污渍

　　头发凌乱，长的盖着他的上半部分脸

　　而他的旁边躺着一个少年

　　他却意外的干净整洁

　　脸上没有一丝血色浑身散发着恶臭

　　我好奇的问了问旁边的人

　　“谁知道啊，就赖着不走了"

　　她嗤笑的回应着
　　旁边又开始了议论

　　“一个年纪轻轻的小伙子怎么就变成这样了"

　　“你们还不知道呢?别可怜他了"

　　“一个同性恋有什么可怜的

　　"那他旁边那谁啊，怎么还不埋了啊"

　　“不让碰，一碰就像疯了一样"

　　“真倒霉啊”

　　几个大妈议论着，脸上满是嗤笑

　　这时一个尖锐的声音传来

　　“滚，赶快滚”

　　“你赖在这很影响我做生意!”

　　一个中年妇女走过来推着他

　　这可能是婚纱店的老板

　　没过一会男孩就背着少年走了

　　我看见他的手上绑着一个破旧的红绳

　　不知道什么原因我心上一酸

　　第三次遇见他是一个月后了

　　他还在那个地方

　　只不过这次他离得很远

　　在一堆垃圾的旁边

　　这有很好的视野，可以清楚的看见整个婚纱
　　店
　　他的身边总会有一堆易拉罐

　　他的眼睛一刻也不离的盯着那个婚纱店

　　背上还是那个少年

　　也不知道怎么了

　　只见他一个劲的背着少年冲进婚纱店

　　老板看到后大惊失色

　　赶忙拦着，这叫屋里的客人也吓了一跳

　　只见他紧张的又说又比划

　　“婚纱婚纱，我的…”

　　比划了半天老板才半懂

　　"去去去，一边去，有钱吗你"

　　“人家那是要结婚用的，你还想着结婚?’

　　说着就要赶他

　　只见他毫不犹豫的跪了下来

　　一个劲的求着

　　这也让行人纷纷都来围观

　　男孩没有尊严的磕着头

　　他像是感觉不到疼

　　额头把地板撞得砰砰作响

　　但是老板却没有为此怜惜

　　反而像是被惹恼了，对他拳打脚踢

　　男孩紧紧的抱着怀里的少年

　　嘴里还在说“婚纱，阿言穿，阿言穿”

　　所有人都在围观没有人上前拦着

　　更没人为他说一句话

　　大概过了几分钟

　　男孩颤颤巍巍的从怀里掏出了所有钱

　　“我有钱…有钱…买…婚纱，给阿言’

　　男孩粗糙的手里躺着几张二十元

　　我突然明白男孩为什么会捡易拉罐

　　后来听人说

　　男孩是个同性恋

　　少年被送进过戒同所

　　回来的时候就只剩一个尸体

　　准备埋得时候

　　男孩抱着少年的尸体就跑了

　　没多久就疯了

　　他整天把怀里的少年擦得干干净净的

　　嘴里还整天念叨着

　　“阿言，婚纱，给阿言买婚纱”

　　他谁都忘了

　　就是没忘给阿言买婚纱

　　他说他的阿言穿婚纱最好看了

　　他说他要把阿言娶回家

　　我不知道什么是爱

　　但这一定是爱
　　（英文版指路）
　　He is going to dress him.

　　He said he would marry him and go home.

　　I met someone in 2003.

　　That was the first time I saw him.

　　It just rained that day.

　　The rain blurred my sense of direction.

　　I ran alone with an umbrella.

　　Just then, I saw a boy.

　　He is still wearing a school uniform.

　　But the mess made me notice him.

　　He has a man on his back.

　　The man is covered with a rag.

　　In this way, he walked with his back.

　　He still has a marijuana bag in his hand, which is clattering inside.

　　The rain wet his whole body.

　　But he was surprised and protected the people on his back.

　　The rain blurred my eyes. I didn't see him clearly.

　　I thought this was an ordinary beggar.

　　Or someone else

　　But before long, I saw the back again.

　　He sat in front of a wedding dress shop.

　　There were people around, talking about him.

　　But he didn't seem to know.

　　I stared at the wedding dress in the wedding dress shop.

　　I walked over curiously before I saw him clearly.

　　He is still the shabby school uniform.

　　It's covered with stains.

　　His hair was messy, covering the upper half of his face.

　　And next to him lay a teenager.

　　But he was unexpectedly clean and tidy.

　　There was no trace of blood on his face and there was a stench all over his body.

　　I asked the people next to me curiously.

　　"Who knows, just don't leave."

　　She responded with a sneer.

　　There is another discussion next to me.

　　"How did a young man become like this?"

　　"Don't you know yet? Don't pity him."

　　"What's wrong with a gay?

　　"Then who is next to him? Why don't you bury it?"

　　"Don't let it happen. If you touch it, it's like crazy."

　　"What bad luck"

　　Several aunts talked, with sneered on their faces.

　　At this time, a shrill voice came.

　　"Get out, get out of here"

　　"You stay here, which affects my business!"

　　A middle-aged woman came over and pushed him.

　　This may be the owner of the wedding dress shop.

　　After a while, the boy left with the teenager on his back.

　　I saw a shabby red rope tied to his hand.

　　I don't know why I feel sore.

　　It's a month after meeting him for the third time.

　　He is still in that place.

　　It's just that he is far away this time.

　　Next to a pile of rubbish

　　This has a good view, and you can clearly see the whole wedding dress.

　　Shop

　　There will always be a pile of cans around him.

　　His eyes stared at the wedding dress shop for a moment.

　　It's still the teenager on my back.

　　I don't know what's wrong.

　　He rushed into the wedding dress shop with a teenager on his back.

　　The boss was shocked when he saw it.

　　He hurriedly stopped, which shocked the guests in the room.

　　He was nervous and said and drew.

　　"Wedding, wedding dress, my..."

　　It took a long time for the boss to understand.

　　"Go, go, go, do you have money?"

　　"That's for marriage. Do you still want to get married?'

　　He was about to drive him out.

　　He knelt down without hesitation.

　　Keep begging.

　　This also makes pedestrians come and watch.

　　The boy kowtowed without dignity.

　　He doesn't seem to feel any pain.

　　The forehead banged the floor.

　　But the boss didn't pity on it.

　　Instead, he seemed to be annoyed and punched and kicked him.

　　The boy held the teenager tightly in his arms.

　　He was still saying, "Wedding dress, Ayan wears it, Ayan wears it."

　　Everyone was watching. No one came forward to stop him.

　　What's more, no one said a word for him.

　　About a few minutes later.

　　The boy took out all the money from his arms tremblingly.

　　"I have money... I have money... buy a wedding dress, give it to A Yan'

　　There are a few 20 yuan in the boy's rough hand.

　　I suddenly understood why the boy picked up a can.

　　Later, I heard that

　　The boy is gay.

　　The teenager was sent to the same place.

　　When I came back, there was only one body left.

　　When you are ready to be buried

　　The boy ran away with the teenager's body in his arms.

　　It didn't take long to go crazy.

　　He wiped the teenager in his arms clean all day.

　　I'm still talking all day.

　　"Ayan, wedding dress, buy a wedding dress for Ayan"

　　He forgot everyone.

　　I just didn't forget to buy a wedding dress for Ayan.

　　He said that his Ayan was the best wedding dress.

　　He said he would marry A Yan home.

　　I don't know what love is.

　　But this must be love.