19、记录梁先生出轨的二十则日记 他那么怕冷 ...
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2006年春
谈及爱人的学校生活，那是一段及其枯熳同时也充斥着校
园暴力时期。
爱人不善言辞常常在班里独来独往
也是因为沉默寡言和温柔的性格遭到班里男生排挤，成为
男生群里被孤立的对象。
打饭买零食欺凌甚至班里某些男生过分的造h谣导致爱人
将近三个月没来上课。
我也时常会撞到在厕所角落因为校服被撕毁哭泣的爱人。
那时的他瘦小无助让我总有一种想保护他的冲动所有总会
跟在他身后扫平一切绊脚石。
2007年夏
我热衷于音乐，每次下晚自习都会在操场和社团里那些人
弹吉他唱歌。
爱人也会跟随人群走到我面前，与其他人不同的是爱人每
次都不会靠的太近依旧停留在栏杆那个位管挂着脑袋观单
我也知道他处于内心的自卑喜欢在角落里获得安全感，只是他不知道的是他这种安全感让他站在了最显眼的位置
导致我的眼神总会不自觉的警向他。
光打在他身上那一刻与周喝灰的的同学相比让我觉得他真的有在发光。
2008年
我参加了唱歌比赛，凭着运气通过了海选，也算小有名气。
一时间以前那些排挤我的人蜂拥而上将我国住嚷嚷着签
名，在我不断拒绝最后借着身体不活的理由才回率位。
用余光警向爱人时他一直握着手里的笔记本朝我的方向伸出然后又快速收回，我也猜透了他的心思
等他走后拿起笔在封面写了小小两个字。
笨强。
2009年
我是一个直白的人。买好鲜花和戒指准备了两天才在一个冬夜选择和他告白。
即使这场告白算不上盛大，他却感动的痛哭流涕喊着我愿
意。
2010年春
爱人喜欢玫瑰，总会在放学后去花店买上一束然后摆放在卧室或者客厅最显眼的位置日复一日
家里的东西都被玫瑰包围。
我曾阻止爱人说我会为他种满园玫瑰，没必要再去花冤枉
钱每天要买费钱又费时间
爱人却不以为然继续摆弄花瓣笑着说
玫现记录我们恋爱天数
枯萎的是玫瑰而不是我的浪漫。
2011年
在周年纪念日
用一个月的打工的钱为爱人重新买了一枚戒指，即使算不上昂贵。
但看到爱人戴在手里开心的发朋友圈的时候
我会有点开心。
和他在的每一天我都很幸福
2012年
爱人为了支持我的音乐创作每天省吃俭用打两份兼职工。
连最爱的泡芙也能坚持一个月不买。
饮食不规律的缘故导致爱人从一百三十斤硬生生的瘦到一
百斤，我心疼的将他搂进怀里并许诺如果有一天我真成功
了一定会和他结婚
他笑的开心歪着头与我拉勾那就这么说好了，谁都不许骗人
2014年春
马上又到周年纪念日为了让爱人高兴，我花了大价钱在后
院移满了玫瑰。
香味瞬间占据了整个院子，就连爱人打算跑过来看时也被我赶走说这是一个惊喜只能在纪念日那天揭秘
在等待纪念日来临那天有几朵玫瑰枯萎。
不知道它们会活多久，啷怕让爱人开心一瞬间也是值得的
2015年
爱人喜欢打篮球，经常打的大汗淋漓，所以在冰箱我总会
为他提前放满可乐还有矿泉水
爱人喜欢上了吉他我也会省吃俭用为他买上一把。
2016年
我的原创歌曲终于在这一年爆火，我也趁着热度顺利签约了一家公司。
当采访询问我有没有另一半时，刚打算说出尘尘的名字却
见低下的经纪人不断摇头我才收住。
我想他应该明白我的欲言又止
我不能让这三个字毁了我好不容易越色的事业。
2018年
我没想到我和女导演进宾馆的事情会被拍到，甚至还传到了爱人手里。
万幸画面模糊我们包的严实根本认不清嘴脸
但还是会在爱人质问的时候心虚回答
我那么爱你，怎么会搞这些东西。
爱人这个小笨蛋会永远信我
2019年
为了不引起不必要的麻烦即使我对爱人失去了热情，但为了堵住他的嚅依旧努力在他身边演爱他的戏码。
我演戏精湛，他始终没从被骗的圈套果缓过来。
奇怪的是他每次都会对我重复说一句话:
你有没有什么话想对我说眼
当我回答没有时他虽然嘴上说着没有继续为我夹菜，但我
的眼神还是能捕捉到一闪而过的失望。
我对不起他，这我是知道的。
2021年
我带着绯闻女友离开时，他站在门口偷偷扔了一束玫瑰。
声音不大，但我凭嘴型能猜测出那是一句辱骂我的话
我忍住泪没有办法停下脚步，只能加快速度朝车里走去。
等再次回到爱人的住所家里已经没了玫瑰的踪影
据邻居透露，爱人已将玫珠统统扔掉，甚至对玫瑰这两个
字也格外避讳。2022年冬
那夜冷的可怕，碰巧电闸又出了故障，亮堂的屋子瞬间灰
暗无比。
林卿尘哈了一口气，冒着黑摸摸索索才找到一根蜡烛
他冷，比外面还冷。
他又不想裹上棉被，他想睡觉，冷的他刚闭上眼又被冻
醒。
他有体寒，如今又在这个时候发作，他冻的嘴唇发白浑身
哆嗦着，嘴里不停的嘀咕着好冷，好冷。
他通讯录里没什么人，因为不善交际除了外地亲戚就只剩
下梁熠冉一个人可以联系，他盯着他的名字看了好久，想
了想又把手机扔到了一边
我不能打扰他的。
2022年冬
黑暗的房间里没有一点光，他打开微博鬼使神差的点到了
那场直播是没烟由和那个女人的同放
他伸出手将那个女人的脸捂住幻想那是自己穿西装的模样
窗户他忘了关上，风连带着雪花飘进了屋里，桌子上的蜡
烛被风吹过火苗闪了闪直至熄灭
他现在冷的一点都不想动，眼皮像有什么东西一样压的他
睁不开眼。
直到他闭上了眼，睡的很安静，有轻微的呼吸声。
凌晨十二点，他的呼吸声戛然而止，眉毛依稀可见结着冰
霜，雪花飘落在屋里落在他头上像是送行。
2022年12月5号
等梁熠冉赶到出租屋拿丢落磁带的时候，才看到已经死透
的林卿尘
寒心的是他几年前送出的戒指他还完整无损的戴在手指
他的心猛地抽了一下随即恢复自然为他换好衣服打算亲自
为他准备葬礼。
幸好他没来参加婚礼，不然情况只会更糟。
桌子上摆放着一张纸条:
梁熠冉这三个字困住了林卿尘一辈子
2023年秋
梁熠冉正式宣布离婚，而他这次也是因为出轨被扒站在刀
尖上
事业一路下滑又恢复成了原本模样
这时他才想起回到以前和林卿尘的住所。
那天久违的狂风暴雨使他寸步难行，或许是林卿尘在阻止
他回家。
后来林卿尘才明白，热衷音乐的先生有一天也会因为事业
而放弃自己，毕竟没人会和钱过不去。
他把冬天留给自己，因为春天是属于梁熠冉的。
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Spring 2006
When it comes to my lover's school life, it is also full of schools.
The period of violence in the park.
Lovers who are not good at words often go alone in the class.
It was also because his taciturn and gentle personality was excluded by the boys in the class and became
Isolated objects in the boy group.
Cooking, buying snacks, bullying and even excessive rumors by some boys in the class lead to their lover.
I haven't come to class for nearly three months.
I often bump into my lover crying in the corner of the toilet because his school uniform was torn.
At that time, his thinness and helplessness always made me have an impulse to protect him.
Follow him to smooth out all stumbling blocks.
Summer 2007
I'm passionate about music. Every time I study by myself next night, I will be in the playground and the club.
Play the guitar and sing.
Lovers will also follow the crowd to me. Unlike others, lovers.
If you don't lean too close, you still stay in the railing. The tube hangs your head and looks at the list.
I also know that his inner inferiority likes to gain a sense of security in the corner, but what he doesn't know is that his sense of security puts him in the most conspicuous position.
As a result, my eyes always unconsciously alert him.
The moment the light hit him compared with Zhou's classmates, which made me feel that he was really shining.
Year 2008
I participated in the singing competition and passed the audition with luck, which was also a little famous.
Some time ago, those who crowded me swarmed up to our country and shouted for the sign.
Name, when I keep refusing, I finally returned to the rate on the grounds that I was not alive.
When he looked at his lover with Yu Guang, he kept holding the notebook in his hand and stretching out in my direction and then quickly withdrawing it. I also figured out what he was thinking.
When he left, he picked up the pen and wrote two small words on the cover.
Clumsy.
In 2009
I am a straightforward person. I bought flowers and rings for two days before I chose to confess to him on a winter night.
Even if this confession was not grand, he was moved to cry and cry out to me.
Meaning.
Spring 2010
Lovers like roses. They always go to the florist after school to buy a bunch and put them in the most conspicuous place in the bedroom or living room day after day.
Everything in the house is surrounded by roses.
I once stopped my lover from saying that I would plant roses all over him, and there was no need to make wrong.
It takes money and time to buy money every day.
My lover didn't think so. He continued to play with the petals and said with a smile.
Mei Xian records the number of days we have been in love.
What withered is the rose, not my romance.
In 2011
On the anniversary
I bought a new ring for my lover with a month's work, even if it's not expensive.
But when I saw my lover wearing it in my hand and sent it happily to WeChat Moments.
I will be a little happy.
I am very happy every day with him.
In 2012
My wife saves two part-time jobs a day to support my music creation.
Even your favorite puff can stick to it for a month.
The reason for irregular diet causes the lover to lose weight from 130 pounds to one.
Baijin, I hugged him in my arms sadly and promised that if one day I would really succeed.
I will definitely marry him.
He smiled happily and tilted his head and hooked me. Then let's put it this way. No one is allowed to lie.
Spring 2014
The anniversary is coming soon. In order to make my lover happy, I spent a lot of money behind.
The courtyard is full of roses.
The fragrance occupied the whole yard in an instant, and even when my lover was about to come over, I was driven away and said that it was a surprise that could only be revealed on the anniversary.
Several roses withered on the day waiting for the anniversary.
I don't know how long they will live, and it's worth it for a moment to make your lover happy.
In 2015
My lover likes to play basketball and often sweats heavily, so I can always play in the refrigerator.
Fill him with coke and mineral water in advance.
If my lover likes the guitar, I will also save money to buy a guitar for him.
In 2016
My original song finally became popular this year, and I successfully signed a company while of the popularity.
When the interview asked me if I had a partner, I was about to say Chenchen's name.
Seeing that the low agent kept shaking his head, I stopped.
I think he should understand that I want to stop talking.
I can't let these three words ruin my hard-wise career.
In 2018
I didn't expect that the female director and I would be photographed and even spread to my lover.
Fortunately, the picture is blurred. We can't recognize our face at all.
But I will still answer guiltyly when my lover asks questions.
I love you so much. How can I do these things?
My lover, this little fool, will always believe me.
In 2019
In order not to cause unnecessary trouble, even if I lost enthusiasm for my lover, I still tried to play the love of him by his side in order to stop him.
I acted so well that he never recovered from the trap of being cheated.
Strangely, he repeats one sentence to me every time:
Do you have anything to say to me?
When I answered no, although he said he didn't continue to pick up vegetables for me, but I
The eyes can still capture a flash of disappointment.
I'm sorry for him, I know that.
In 2021
When I left with my gossip girlfriend, he stood at the door and secretly threw a bunch of roses.
The voice is not loud, but I can guess that it is an insult to me by the shape of my mouth.
I couldn't hold back my tears and couldn't stop. I had to speed up and walk towards the car.
When I return to my lover's house again, there is no trace of roses.
According to the neighbors, the lover has thrown away all the rose beads, even the roses.
Words are also particularly taboo. Winter 2022
The night was terriblely cold. It happened that the electric gate broke down again, and the bright room was instantly gray.
It's extremely dark.
Lin Qingchen took a breath and groped in the dark to find a candle.
He is colder than outside.
He didn't want to wrap it in a quilt. He wanted to sleep. As soon as he closed his eyes, he was frozen.
Wake up.
He has a chill, and now he has an attack at this time. His frozen lips are white all over.
I trembled and kept muttering that it was so cold.
There is no one in his address book, because he is not good at socializing except relatives from other places.
Xia Liang Yiran can contact him alone. He stared at his name for a long time and thought.
After thinking about it, I threw my mobile phone aside again.
I can't disturb him.
Winter 2022
There was no light in the dark room. He opened the Weibo ghost and clicked it badly.
The live broadcast was smokeless and played with that woman.
He stretched out his hand and covered the woman's face and fantasized that it was what he looked like in a suit.
He forgot to close the window. The wind drifted into the room with snowflakes, and the wax on the table.
The candle flashed through the flames by the wind until it went out.
He is so cold that he doesn't want to move at all, and his eyelids pressed him like something.
I can't open my eyes.
Until he closed his eyes, he slept quietly and had a slight breathing sound.
At 12 a.m., his breathing stopped abruptly, and his eyebrows faintly showed ice.
Frost, snowflakes fell in the house and fell on his head as if to see him off.
December 5, 2022
When Liang Yiran rushed to the rental house to get the lost tape, he saw that it was dead.
Lin Qingchen
What's chilling is that the ring he sent a few years ago was still intact on his fingers.
His heart suddenly bleed and then recovered. Naturally, he changed his clothes and planned to be in person.
Prepare a funeral for him.
Fortunately, he didn't come to the wedding, otherwise the situation would have been worse.
There is a note on the table:
Liang Yiran trapped Lin Qingchen all his life.
Autumn 2023
Liang Yiran officially announced his divorce, and this time he was also standing on the knife for cheating.
On the tip
The career has been declining and has returned to its original appearance.
Only then did he remember to go back to his former residence with Lin Qingchen.
The long-lost storm made it difficult for him to walk. Maybe Lin Qingchen was stopping him.
He went home.
Later, Lin Qingchen realized that the gentleman who was passionate about music would one day be because of his career.
After all, no one will get along with money after all.
He left winter to himself, because spring belongs to Liang Yiran.
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第19章 记录梁先生出轨的二十则日记
