《首辅之妻中英对照版》KaylieLiu

112、Chapter 112：Force her to die T

　　Though I was a unique and beautiful flower, my bloom withered before it could blossom. Despite my talents bringing me recognition in the literary world, my reputation was marred by scandal.

　　我虽也是名花一枝独秀，但我这朵花未曾绽放身已经腐烂，我虽也素有才名震文坛，却长了艳名。

　　I longed to be like winter plum blossoms, resilient against the wind, defying snow and frost with a proud spirit. Yet, even the plum tree bows to the cold wind. How could I wait for the flowers to bloom?

　　我想做那寒梅开寒冬，迎风而立，傲雪欺霜做梅魂，可叹那寒风瑟瑟梅树也折，如何待到花开时？

　　I felt like a prisoner, shackled and burdened, my body and mind confined, constantly reminded by the ringing alarm. I yearned to break free and discard these chains, but I was a helpless and weak woman, lacking divine power.

　　我是这世间的一囚女，身上枷锁沉甸甸，把我的身心囚，时时刻刻告警钟，我想冲破束缚把枷锁扔，恨只恨我无有通天能，恨只恨我只是世间中的一介无用的弱女子。

　　My heart ached, tears flowing, the pain like a knife twisting, leaving me powerless and heartbroken.

　　心悲切，泪婆娑，心痛如刀绞，无能为力心滴血。

　　The journey ahead is more challenging than climbing the sky.

　　行路难，难于上青天。

　　Stolen happiness is fleeting, and heartfelt love resembles water that goes with the stream, all in vain.

　　偷来的欢乐终难留，一腔真情要覆水流。

　　A woman of bitter fate composes a song of sorrow, lamenting her tragic life.

　　苦命女子谱了一首苦命的曲，哀哀切切闻着悲。

　　My heart bleeds, my words trapped, choking on a thousand unspoken words and tears.

　　心滴血，难出唇，千言万语和泪吞。

　　I force myself to appear solid and calm. Why bother uttering futile words or sharing bitter wine with another?

　　强自撑，装平静，无用的话儿何必提，苦酒何必多一人？

　　An ordinary woman should dare to act and bear the consequences, no matter how bitter, exhausting, resentful, or unwilling life may be.

　　平庸的民间女，人生再苦再累再恨再怨再不甘，也当敢作敢为自担后果。

　　The sky is vast, the earth dark, my head spins, and my feet feel light. Life is bitter like bile, but we must persevere, carrying on as usual.

　　天悠悠，地昏昏，头昏目眩脚儿轻，人生比那胆汁苦，生活也要照常过，照常过。

　　Pitiful souls do not grieve, dwell, or overthink.

　　可怜的人哪，心莫悲，莫去想，莫去思。

　　Keep my hands busy, work diligently, and don\'t obsess over matters of love.

　　手勤奋，多干活，莫要牵肠挂肚儿女情。

　　Though people may grieve, the heavens do not. Has anyone ever witnessed the heavens showing mercy?

　　人可悲，天不悲，可曾见苍天发慈悲？

　　Keep moving, hasten, and tread carefully on the rugged mountain paths.

　　脚莫停，赶路忙，山路崎岖要多小心。

　　Only by living can there be hope, and by living well can there be a tomorrow.

　　人活着，才有希望，人活好，才有明天。

　　How challenging is it to alter one\'s fate and defy destiny?

　　叹人生，改天逆命有多难？

　　My background has left its imprint on my soul. I had character, abilities, and virtues superior to the ancients and was as pure as jade. However, despite removing three layers of flesh, I am still covered in muck.

　　身世的烙印入骨魂，原以为我清清白白洁如玉，气节人品才华比先贤，却不料我脱掉三层皮也洗不净身上的这层泥。

　　I resent the heartlessness of the heavens, with merely white clouds drifting aimlessly and without leaving any trace.

　　我怨苍天太狠心，太无情，可叹那苍天只见白云朵朵飘，无影又无踪。

　　I loathe the injustice of fate. How much more suffering do I have to undergo than the ordinary person? I have studied poetry and literature diligently, exceeding many scholars.

　　我恨那命运太不公，我苦过一般人多少倍？我勤奋读诗书胜过多少世间儿郎？

　　What did I do wrong? What crime did I commit? Why is my fate so difficult?

　　我有何错？我有何罪？为何上苍给了我一个这样的命运？