《疑心病》一叶知境

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　　我坐在病床上里，看着窗外的树，树
　　上的鸟儿，和洒在房间里的阳光，光斑随着风而
　　动。

　　2022.9.1
　　我应该算是有天赋的吧，所有事情
　　我都有涉及，不过我更喜欢画画时大脑放空的感觉。可惜啊，我因为严重失眠，厌食，还有可怕的自杀倾向被绑到了医院来，我好想继续接触画笔，只有画画才能让我内心平静下来

　　2022.9.3
　　我不就在房间里和他跳了个华尔兹
　　和他说了句我爱你嘛，为什么其他病人要说我是
　　神经病，我明明很正常!
　　他应该也爱我吧，就像我爱他那
　　样。不知为何我和他们分享起我和他的故事，他
　　们就想远离我呢?他明明很正常啊，我也是，是他们不正常一定是!
　　2022.9.5
　　噗哈哈哈哈，他们怎么那么蠢啊，
　　谁叫他们当着我说我的爱人，哈哈，招报应了吧，噗哈哈哈哈。不过，我的宝贝下手还是轻了，只是重伤，应该杀了他们的，噗哈哈哈哈

　　2022.9.28

　　他们为什么要对我加强管
　　理?!!我没病!我没病!我只是喜欢他而已，
　　我没病!

　　2022.10.03
　　我悄悄杀了几个人，都是之前说我
　　爱人的人是不存在的，我爱人他不是一直在我身边吗，怎么能说他不在呢?他们惊慌的样子，真美啊

　　2022.10.16
　　我杀了他们，血腥味和杀人的快感
　　好刺激!我好喜欢!我要杀更多人!我要在他们身边留下我的签名!我喜欢他们临死前看着我惊恐的眼神这种感觉，真好
　　不知道警察他们看到了这些尸体会
　　怎么想呢，是觉得我是反社会，还是觉得我是一个精神病呢！
　　（英文版指路）
　　I sat in the hospital bed and looked at the trees outside the window.

　　On the birds, and the sunlight sprinkled in the room, the spotlight followed the wind.

　　Move.

　　2022.9.1

　　I should be regarded as talented, everything.

　　I'm involved, but I prefer the feeling of emptying my brain when I draw. Unfortunately, I was tied up to the hospital because of severe insomnia, anorexia, and terrible suicidal tendencies. I really want to continue to touch the brush. Only painting can calm me down.

　　2022.9.3

　　I didn't jump waltz with him in the room.

　　I said to him that I love you. Why do other patients say that I am

　　I'm insane. I'm obviously normal!

　　He should love me too, just like I love him.

　　Sample. I don't know why I shared me and his story with them, he

　　Do you just want to stay away from me? He is obviously normal, and so am I. They must be abnormal!

　　2022.9.5

　　Hahahaha, why are they so stupid?

　　Who told them to say my love in front of me, haha, retribution, hahahaha. However, my baby's attack is still light. It's just a serious injury. He should kill them. Hahahahahahaha

　　2022.9.28

　　Why did they strengthen their control of me?

　　Reason?!! I'm not sick! I'm not sick! I just like him.

　　I'm not sick!

　　2022.10.03

　　I quietly killed several people, all of whom told me before.

　　There is no lover. Isn't his wife always by my side? How can he say that he is not here? They looked so beautiful in panic.

　　2022.10.16

　　I killed them, the smell of blood and the pleasure of killing.

　　So exciting! I like it so much! I want to kill more people! I want to leave my autograph with them! I like the feeling that they look at me in horror before they die. It's great.

　　I don't know the police. They saw these bodies.

　　What do you think? Do you think I'm anti-social or do you think I'm mentally ill?