《a diary to lose》载羽

2、mirror

　　Watching myself in the washroom mirror, I don’t know the answer. I don’t know how to love myself. Today as a whole I have a good day. But the thing is the time I watch myself in the mirror, I ask myself, why you do this to yourself It hurts. True, it hurts. And you know what, I hate myself for knowing that I did tell myself that we can only know what life is when life hurts us. Why you told yourself that shit Just because you are doomed so You wanna live your life. You don’t wanna die. Is that all you can do for the answer
　　I really hate it when I hate my friends, when I tell myself that they don’t deserve friends. But you wanna make friends. Once your boy told you that he no longer wanted his old friends. You found that quite inappropriate at that time. Now you know he is right. You want friends that you will never hate. Now you hate yourself.
　　I wanna live a life. I wanna stay alive. I wanna make some friends with those I will never hate. I don’t wanna hate myself. At least not for myself being alive.