《The Diary of a Concubine》Velvet Sin

4、The Third Entry

　　Jealousy - it is a totally alien feeling.

　　I found her sitting alone in the Gaj. I discovered her potential. And I presented her to Thialle. It is all my own doings. Then why the sharp tang of jealousy?

　　He said she will not have his lips. But she already takes so much of his time. She would be his personal aide. His left hand. What am I? Better to pick one myself. Someone I can cope with. And I did. But it is like choosing my own poison. The taste is bitter, bitter.

　　I have no right to feel this way. No right. I had known what will happen. I had expected everything. But I never expected to feel again.

　　It makes the empty loneliness all the more acute.

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