《自言自语》睡着的时候不困

3、就在刚刚到来的五月

　　What about now You finally tear up your fake mask and show it up right into my face I just can\'t understand it. Why you require other people to be sad as you are Everyone is trying to figure this out but you\'ve been just messing it up. I\'m so scared of being in a relationship because I don\'t want to meet someone like you. I hate the smell of cigarette to death. I hate the way you cough when everyone is eating. I hate hearing the sound of you peeing when we are having meals. And I hate the awful smell of your room when I was cleaning the floor. I just do everything I could do to avoid you pick up my faults. Can\'t you see that I never feel your real love for me. All I can see is you care yourself most. Others\' fathers would encourage their daughters to be confident, to be courageous, or something else. What about mine My biological father didn\'t want me. Since the divorce with my mother, he never saw me and never paid. My stepfather just do everything to make him feel like rich and capable which is not in the fact. I hate all these fake things. You just seem like living in a big lie which is ridiculous and make no sense. Now, you come to my face. You think I\'m the same with my mom Totally wrong!!!!! I will never forget everything you\'ve been done. Of course I won\'t. I just want to ran away. I don\'t want to be home. I hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

作者有话说

　　由于自己的专业是英语，然后又不想让别人烦我电脑的时候看到，就拿英文写了。不好意思。（我都是记录在电脑的便签上，所以怕别人借用的时候会看到，下次不会了。）多多包涵。