《My true life》w

1、第 1 章

　　Seafood, red wine and a movie, all this things together, can you image how romantic the date is? Other side, if a woman eat cheap seafood buy from market herself, hand a metal cup with red wine and sit in the house see movie front of computer alone, can you feel how void the pity woman is?
　　That is exactly me.
　　Now, I am drunk in the bed and think about the men around me. A married man, a boyfriend before, a master and a guy I maybe will marry. I always keep my body chaste, but it leads to keep my mind thinking about man all night.
　　I want to talk with someone. Fortunately, the phone just ring. I see a message leave by the guy my parents want me to marry. So, I pick the phone up and call him.
　　“Hi, where are you now?”
　　“Hi, I am in a train. Have nothing to do.”
　　……
　　So, we chat.
　　After 15-minute chat, suddenly, the line is cut off. I lie in the bed and wait him to call back. But 3 minutes later, I realize the guy will never call back again. what happened? Don’t we have a good chat minutes earlier? Is he just kidding me? In fact, I have no idea about it. Maybe just batteries work out. But it let my head clear and doesn’t want to sleep now.
　　Yes, I feel lonely. Yes, I need a man. My thought is “to put quality before quantity”,” rather remain single than settle for someone incompatible”. So, I have no man to share the long night with. How sad am I!
　　Old one always says “don’t think so much. It is unhelpful!” but when you are the woman like me, you can’t stop thinking with so much blank time. You can do hard work during work time. And after that, you can choose some sports, make healthy meal, and have date, see movies, even chat with a stranger online. Life is short! Enjoy it! But, after all of that, you still have blank time and can’t sleep in the midnight. How is it going?
　　The serious thing is I am □□. I have to deal with my libido. What do others do when they want sex? Find a guy to fuck, or help herself?
　　Maybe the second way is suit to me.
　　Which man will have relationship with me? One of them or none? who knows! Just enjoy myself!