《凡所有相，好了歌》趁杰

3、寒风吹不散的决定（三） tha

　　that kind of dry and cold blue. She sat up, froze for a few seconds on the bed, then got out of bed to wash up, put on her clothes, and put her lesson plan book into her bag. Before leaving, she stood at the door to change her shoes. Out of the corner of her eye, she caught sight of her phone on the shoe rack. The screen lit up, showing a message from the geography group. She didn't open it and put the phone into her coat pocket, zipping it up. When she closed the door, she turned back and looked at the mirror on the entryway. She saw herself wearing a gray-blue down jacket, with a scarf wrapped around half her face, leaving only her eyes exposed. She couldn't recognize the expression in those eyes, which seemed to be calm mixed with something else - she herself couldn't see it clearly.
　　她翻了个身，把被子拉到下巴。那块浅影还在天花板上，一动不动，像在等她做一个决定。她闭上眼睛，在黑暗里对自己说："那就先做着吧。做一阵子，再说。"
　　窗外起了风，吹得窗框轻轻响了一声。她没再醒。第二天早上六点半闹钟响的时候，念微睁开眼，看见窗外天已经亮了，冬天的早晨是那种干冷干冷的蓝。她坐起来，在床上愣了几秒，然后下床洗漱，穿好衣服，把教案本装进包里。出门前她站在门口换鞋，余光瞥见鞋柜上的手机，屏幕亮了一下，是地理群里的消息。她没点开，把手机放进外套口袋，拉上拉链。关门的时候她回头看了一眼玄关那面镜子，里面的她穿着灰蓝色的羽绒服，围巾裹到半张脸，只剩一双眼睛露在外面。那双眼里的神色她认不出来，像是平静里混着点别的什么——她自己也没看太清。
　　She pulled open the door and stepped out. The cold wind hit her face, and she shrank her neck, walking towards the direction of the school.
　　她拉开门，走了出去。寒风迎面扑来，她缩了缩脖子，往学校的方向走去。