《GGAD通信集- Thirty-five Owls》忆绛珠

19、The Eighteenth Owl( From AD) 1957.

　　December 5th, 1957

　　公元1957年，十二月5日

　　Gellert,

　　盖勒特，

　　You've hit more than one nail on the head, I'm afraid. Hammered them in, even. There is so much that I fear, in the end. And— and I do not know what. The more I think on it all, on our history— decades of it by now, startlingly enough— the more I cannot untangle myself.

　　我怕你的话已经超出了一针见血的程度。你甚至可以说是把他们狠狠地锤进了我的脑子里。到头来，我害怕的事物还是如此之多。且——且我还完全不知道它们为何物。我关于这一切——我们的历史思考的愈多——真真是奇怪，这种思考至今竟已持续几十年了——就愈无法让自己解脱。

　　I first made my Pensieve, you realize, to sort through every memory I had of our time together. To look, with an objective eye, as best as I could, at who you were, what you were doing, how you were acting. To see if I should have been able to predict your actions, if I was as short-sighted and blinded to your darkness as everybody around me thought I was. So, yes, what you seek is there, well-preserved. "Yes," I said," she might drop dead at the sight. Though of us or the blood magic, I'm not sure. " I then went on with that ultimately doomed theoryof mine about Transfiguration-based amplification of the latter.

　　你明白，我第一次制造我的冥想盆，是为了将我们共度的时光里的那些记忆碎片一一理清。去尽我所能的，以一个旁观者的视角去看看，你那时究竟是个怎样的人，你那时到底做了些什么，所表现出的又是怎样的。去想想我是否本能够预测你的行动，我那时是否真的如身边的人所认为的那样，目光短浅，对你的阴暗面浑然不觉。所以，是的，你所寻找的就在那里，被保存的异常完美。“是的，”我说，“她看到的话可能会猝死的。虽说我不能确定是因我们还是血咒。”然后我继续研究那以变形术为根基的魔咒后期扩大理论——这是注定要失败的。

　　I am sorry for the delay. It wasa little thing, and fair to ask. But— no, I am still inexcusably tangled.

　　我很抱歉我的拖沓。这只是一件小事，你完全有权询问。但——不，我仍是不可饶恕地乱成一团。

　　I must go, I am afraid.

　　我怕，我必须行动了。

作者有话说

　　隔了半年才回信GG你闹得有点过了（不对下一封才是真真作死）
小中考倒计时了地理还一点不会
最多发到第20封信就得闭关修炼去了，估计下一次更新要等7月（疯子教育局居然7月1号才期末考）