8、Hail ...
- "I suddenly became very talkative, while eating soy milk and oil strips, while talking to Uncle Chen. After breakfast, I see it is still early, there are not many pedestrians on the street, and walk along the sidewalk. My mood was easy, and my body was fluttering, like useful energy, and my brain was very active. Some early-risers in the □□ group occasionally took my words, regardless of knowing or not, I will talk to them a few words. Not only that, I even felt that if I now let me sit down and carry a whole book of Chu, I could finish it quickly. I talked about my phone □□ and went on aimlessly. All the forks I met, I chose to turn left. I didn’t know how long I went, and when I looked up I found myself standing in the middle of the city. There was a huge fountain spraying water, and the white flower beads rushed up half-empty and fell down. My limbs suddenly produced a spasm, a panic of self-heart poured up, my dream waking up, from the excited emotion. Water, a lot of water, they devour my limbs, and a great fear comes to me with the sound of water. I’m going to run, I have to run, I have to get out of here, I have to get out of here… My heart is shrinking dramatically, I don’t know why I’m so panicked and so afraid. I wanted to find a place to hide, there was no water, no rough crowd, no all kinds of eyes. “Miya, Miya, where are you? Go, get out of here, there's a lot of water here, awful…" I murmured unconsciously, and I don't know what I said, "Run, run, run ... no quick words, will die." The world in front of the eyes is like an overexposed photo, the contrast between light and shadow is so strong, the air is distorting, everything seems so hostile. I stumbled forward and ran, I seemed to hit people, and everyone looked at me with a weird look. They're peeping at me, they're trying to hurt me! “Miya, where are you? Tears went down uncontrollably, and I saw from the light of the light I was as stiff as a wooden doll. I can't control my expression, I don't want to cry, but tears are my own running out, I can't stop! Miya Xu, gentle as the warm sun of March, where are you? Don't go into the water, don't go, it will die. . . I reached out and panicked, I wanted to catch a passer-by, but they all hid from me. My mood was getting more and more irritable, and there was a fire in my heart. If I could see what I am, I would be scared by what I am now. Now I, my eyes are red, stiff expression. My brain suddenly was blank, and nothing could be heard. It was as though a century had passed, I heard someone talking. I had a trance before my eyes, and when my eyes finally had focal length again, I saw me clutching a girl’s arm tightly. She was terrified and was almost crying. "I don't know what Miya Xu, I'm sorry, I really don't know where he is! She repeatedly said that. I loosened my hand as a electric shock, and she almost fell away. There was no one in a large circle around me, and everyone was walking around me. What did I just do? How did I catch the girl in my trance time, and I asked her what? I took a step back consciously. Everyone looked at my eyes straight, with a snooping meaning. I then took a step back and then turned around and ran out! Unconsciously, I ran into a big mall. The chaos I had just caused, and brought the security of the mall, and they came to me. I can't get caught. I have to run! It is the only thing the brain can think of. I've been running for a long time. The pedestrians on the road hurried and all men had an illusory expression on their faces. I don’t know where I am, I’m going, I just know I can’t stop. But at this point, someone pulled my arm and stopped my way. I got into the man's arms, a fresh breath of mint floating into the nasal cavity, and pouring into my brain, which was clearly exhausted but unusually excited. I raised my head and reflected in the curtain, a handsome boy with fair skin. "Miya! The moment I looked up, I overflowed these words in my mouth. But this boy is not Miya. His eyes were amber, and his face was a little heavy. "Who are you? Why stop me? I tried to struggle, but couldn’t get his hand. The boy heard my problem, stiff, even the eye waves trembled. He seemed to be incredible: “Don’t you know me? "Of course I don't know you! "I think this person is simply inexplicable, any passenger I need to know? “The summer rain. “He shouted my name. I stopped for a moment, some wondering why this man knew me? “I am Wooden. " the boy whispered. Wooden? I thought carefully, the name was a little familiar, and I seemed to hear it somewhere. But I'm sure I don't know this person in front of me. Mu Sunnan never thought that the rain picked up the rain would ask him such a question as “who are you?” Because half a month ago, they met at the original school of the rain pick up, and even quarreled. However, after half a month, Xia pickup rain completely did not remember who Mu Sunan was, her eyes did not lie, she looked at him was completely strange, she really did not remember him. “I am Wooden. Wooden repeated again, not knowing why, she did not remember him at all, which made him a little concerned, "We have seen it the other day." "Excuse me. Xia pickup the rain expression was a little bit unanswered, "I don't remember …" "It's okay, you don't have to care. Wooden said he was busy pulling the topic away, "How are you here? Did you just meet someone? Xia picked up the rain in the place, slightly crooked at Wooden, that expression was unusually obedient. The sun fell lazy and left a soft kiss mark on her. This moment did not know if it was illusion, Wosunan seemed to see two years ago standing in front of the library's shelf, the girl in a white shirt and plate skirt. They stood in different spacetime, but they overlapped strangely together. "Just…" the sight of the rain picked up a moment of lag, "I saw the fountain. Wooden's south giggles, do not need to Xia pick up more to say anything, he already knows what she just experienced. That day, after returning home from the hospital, Mu Sinan simply looked at what the condition was, but he quickly turned off the web page and forced himself not to take care of the rain pick up. Within a few days, however, he found something very strange. It was ten days ago, he was playing games, suddenly a junior school classmate on □□ to find him, said that he saw someone online with Miya Xu's identity posts, plus a variety of groups, and made some very strange remarks. At that time, Mu Sunan thought who was doing a prank, was trying to find the pranky man out and teach him, so that he didn't joke with the dead. However, let him be cautious, unexpectedly, the person who posted with Miya Xu's identity was actually Xia pickup rain. Anyone can joke about Miyao's death, but the rain is definitely impossible. How could she do such a cruel thing as a girl who blamed mental disorders because of Miya's death? Wosunan turned all those posts over, and the more cold the heart. Those posts are logical, even cloudy. But she was posting almost a while. He joined the group, and many people couldn’t stand her neurotics, cut her out and blackened her. But even so, it can't stop her, she will add more groups and speak in the identity of Miya Xu. Her tone is so exciting, she will sing Miyao's favorite song, she recorded it to the Internet. In just ten days, she played Miya as a madman. The reason why Wooden would appear here is no coincidence. An hour ago, Xia picked up the rain again in the group, of course, still use Miya Xu's identity, she said she ate soy milk, oil bars, and sun the store signs and shared the location. She also wrote a beautiful little poem, praising the beautiful early morning of the summer. Wooden ran out with little pause to grab his phone. I can't tell why, like a blind line in the midst of the midst of the midst of the midst of the inside, is taking him this way. He looked for a long time, and finally found the shattered rain, as if abandoned by the world. The summer picked up the rain before her eyes, the bandage on her forehead had been removed, and the tender scar told that she had broken her head. "Are you afraid? Wooden asked carefully, "Shah pick up the rain, are you afraid? The back of the rain was stiff, and her heart was trembling, as if the deepest place in her heart was seen through. She instinctively shook her head and quickly denied: "I am not afraid, how can I be afraid?" It's just a fountain. "Mobile phone..." Woody Snan spread a hand at her, "Can I borrow it for a second? My phone is out of electricity, I need to make a very important phone call. "Yes. Xia pickup is not a little bit of a person, although she is in a bad condition at this time, but borrowing the phone can still do. She would have kept her phone tightly in her hand on Wooden's hand. "Thank you. Wooden took over the phone, lighted the screen, or chat interface on it, Xia pickup □□ is certainly the one that impersonated Miyaku. He sighed in his heart, and she made her own life into another person. He hides the chat interface to the background, then presses the dial-up key and dials a number. He hit for a moment, no one answered, so some regrets gave the phone back to Xia Picking Rain: "Thank you, it looks like my friend didn't bring a phone." "Don't thank you. “The rain picked up the phone. Her face was already better by this time, and seemed to have come out of the mood that had just been out of control. Wooshinan stood in the place, watching the summer pick up rain and walked away. After a while, he quietly followed. Such rain made him feel very unreliable. He followed her all the way to her neighborhood where she was, watching her go upstairs to leave with ease. Wooden didn’t go home, he went to the hospital. He went to the hospital to find someone, who of course was Dr. Zhang. The behavior of the rain picking up is really strange, weird to worry. There were no other patients in Dr. Zhang’s office. Wooden knocked on the door, and Dr. Zhang looked up to see Woosnan, a little surprise. But it was only an instant, and he quickly recovered. It was like Wooden came to him, as he had expected, but also unexpected. "You came here for the rain, right? Dr. Zhang opened his mouth first. Wooden didn't speak, but it was default. “I think you should come and sit in. Dr. Zhang didn’t care, and even looked up at him again. Woosnan walked in and sat down across from Dr. Zhang. “Bipolar disorder, what is going on with this disease? " asked Wooden Nan. “Clinical manifestations are both mania and depression during the course of the disease, that is, both depression and mania, either before and after seizures, or mixed episodes. She has previously been mainly manifested in thinking, memory or dreams, repeated and uncontrollable surge of trauma-related situations or content, and has a serious touch-scene biological reaction, so I diagnosed as traumatic re-experience disorder in traumatic stress disorder. Dr. Zhang said, a glitch of guilt in her eyes, "but according to her recent performance, coupled with the instrument test results, can basically be diagnosed as bipolar disorder." "Then ... would she have fantasies when she was ill? Wooden asked, "Think of yourself as another person, and that situation ... will there be? Dr. Zhang finally raised his head, frowned, confirmed, asked like, "Fantasy? Wooden nodded south: "Yes, she fantasized herself as a palace, the dead one." After all, Mu Sunan took out his phone, opened the forum, and showed the posts that Xia pick up the rain online to Dr. Zhang read: "Look, she fantasized when, it seems like the whole person is so excited, the emotion is so high that it is always chattering, but the preface of the talk is not to follow, it is strange. Dr. Zhang turned over the posts before and after, and then his face became unusual. Mu Sunan's mood has changed with the change of Dr. Zhang's expression, and it has become more and more heavy. Suddenly he regretted taking these to Dr. Zhang, because he was afraid that Dr. Zhang would come to the conclusion that he would be satisfying. “Her condition is more serious than I expected. Dr. Zhang returned his phone to Musunan, "This disease, indeed, may cause psychiatric division." `Spiritual division? Wooden looked at Dr. Zhang with dismay, "You mean, she split herself into Miyaku? "Not like that. Dr. Zhang shook her head, “She may be just a precursor, there is such a possibility, not to say that she is now mentally divided.” Wooden took a slow breath, but he quickly remembered another question: “She saw me today, why would she not know me at all? I met her, and I said an excessive word that stimulated her. Even if it's just one side, she doesn't impress me, but only half a month, so you don't remember it? “That’s because she’s selectively forgotten that memory. Dr. Zhang said, “The bipolar patient will have short-lived symptoms, and she will forget something, especially those that stimulate her, make her irritable, sad, and painful.” “That is…” Wooden did not continue. He's not a fool, Dr. Zhang said very well. That day, his words stimulated the rain pick up in Xia, so she would be angry, and suddenly it seemed like a person. "Can she be okay? Wooden looked up at Dr. Zhang, his eyes and tone were very serious, "one day, she can turn back to the once summer rain pick up? Dr. Zhang did not speak, and Mu Sunan's heart was getting more and more sinking. "Will it be okay, this disease? Wooden was reluctant to believe that the rain would never be okay, or that he didn’t want to see her always look like this. The dead are dead, and the living must live better. And Miya liked her so much, he wouldn’t want to see her like that. If he knew that because of his death, the rain would never be okay, he would not be able to leave it well? “Have confidence in her. Dr. Zhang looked at the sadness and anxiety in the eyes of Wooden Nan, finally slowly opened his mouth, "As long as the patient maintains a good mood, with the treatment, the patient around can take twelve care of her, will be improved." “The wooden was silent. Dr. Zhang did not directly say that he could cure, but only that he could improve, and the condition was still to keep the patient in a good mood, and the people around him gave her twelve care. "Can I do something? He always felt that he didn’t want to watch the rain pick up the rain alone on that dark road of life. He wanted to pull her out, pull her out, tell her not to be so sad, tell her Miyao Xu is liked her, tell her the future is still far, the past is past, the past is past, the place she should look at, is colorful future. "I didn't remember anything wrong, you said you were Miya's friend, right? Dr. Zhang smiled, “Why do you want to help her? Shouldn't you hate her and hate her like all those associated with Miya Xu? “I don’t think she has such a sin. Wooden looked at Dr. Zhang and said seriously, "This year, she has had so much pain, is enough? `Do you really think so? Dr. Zhang said dimly, "If you really think so, then can I please you one thing? "What? " asked Wooden. “Protect her. Dr. Zhang said very solemnly, "When the family hurt her, if you are there, please protect her." Can you do that? Wooden stopped for a moment, and then understood what Dr. Zhang meant. Xia pickup rain will become this, and has a great relationship with the attitude of the Palace family. They hated her and hated her as much as possible. How many people can face such hatred? Moreover, the summer pickup rain itself is deeply painful and self-reproach for the death of Miyao. “You don’t have to rush to answer me, or you don’t agree or do not matter, you have reason and have a position to reject my request.” Dr. Zhang looked at the silent Mu-Nan, slowly said, "After all, Miyao is a good friend and good brother who has known you for many years, if you promise to stand by the rain to protect her, it means you want to be enemy with the family of Palace." Wooden's back was loose. He doesn’t understand this, he just doesn’t want to think. Because he grew up with Miyao Xu, Miyao’s family was almost his family. Can he do that? Standing with the murderer they identified as killing Miyaku, and the family of Miyaku, who was enemy? He seems to be unable to do that. "Excuse me. His eyes were somewhat disoriented, “Excuse me, what can I do except that?” “He can’t really do it. He cannot hurt Miyao's important family because of his unbearable heart. They have lost the palace. He could not be hostile to the summer with their enemies, but at least not stab the knife at their heart, right? “Be friendly to her. Dr. Zhang did not think that Mu Sunan’s choice was wrong, he could understand, “Not hurt her, that’s the only thing you can do for her.” Wooden's eyes quivered gently, and he nodded gently. After coming out of Dr. Zhang's office, Mu Sunan's mood was complicated. In fact, for a moment, he wanted to say “good” to Dr. Zhang, but he stood it. How could he have such thoughts? He closed his eyes, and the girl standing in front of the bookshelf in the deep of his mind became clearer. She didn’t look back at him at that time, always on her side. But strange, he kept remembering the scene. In the quiet afternoon, the overcrowded library, the girl in a plaid skirt, stood quietly as if everything around it had been beaten up the virtual effect, only she was clear, and every hair dropped in her ear was clearly discernible. He thought he should be quiet, and these days he spent too much time on the rain pick up in the summer, he was too concerned about her, he should do something else to distract his attention. There are more and more circles painted on the calendar. On August 30, he was peddled out with a red signature pen, which read “The Day of School”. That day, only two days away. The W-Big Wall to go to the city is in this city, which is a 211 key college. In fact, Mom did not want her to go to school, because the state of the rain pick up is very unstable, she can not go to school at all. However, these days the summer pick up rain began not to take medicine, whenever the point of taking the medicine, she will be unusually anxious, she insisted that she is not ill, insisted that she is normal and healthy. She seemed to have forgotten a lot of things, including the chaos that had arisen in the mall that morning, and she had forgotten all those unpleasant things. Many times, summer mom is thinking, if she can forget about Miyao, how good it should be. But she never forgot. Miya Xu is like a thorn, deeply stuck in the heart of the rain pick up in the summer. That thorn can't touch, and it hurts hot. For a long time no one touches the sting again, so the prick grows with flesh and blood, and it cannot be touched. “Pick up the rain, come down for lunch. Mom was standing downstairs and shouting. "Coming! As if there was an endless energy in the sound, Xia picked up the rain from the computer. The computer displays a document interface, which is dense and numerous words written. If you look closely, you will find that it is a novel — a novel written by Xia Picking Rain. She suddenly had a strong interest in writing novels the other two days, so she devoted a lot of hard-earned energy to writing novels. Her spirit was always excited, and sometimes she didn't sleep all night, but she was clearly and very trapped, her eyelids were tired. She didn’t know what to do with waking time, so she sat in front of her computer to write stories when she couldn’t sleep. She intends to write a long story, the story that Miya is alive. In the story, she and Miya Xu are about to step into the W's major school door, where she made many friends, every day was very happy. She sends her literature website every day. Her story is warm and funny, and she looks warm in her heart, and laughs from time to time. Therefore, her novel soon burned. Many people are curious, the author of the pseudonym named Rain Fei, who is sacred.
作者有话说第8章 Hail
